I’m writing this post on the eve of my 33rd birthday [here’s what 32 looked like] and quite honestly, I don’t really know what to talk about. Birthdays for me have never been a huge milestone, except for my 16th birthday when my parents gave me a subscription to People magazine and I anxiously awaited each month’s issue. OK and maybe, just maybe, my 21st birthday when I was so nervous to order a drink at the bar that I just ordered a Long Island Iced tea because that’s what 21-year old’s drink, right?! But this year, as 33 is upon me, I can’t help but think about what happened last year, what’s happening now, and what’s to come.
I was feeling sorry for myself. I was constantly thinking about my miscarriage [10/20/17], what my family would’ve been like with a “May 2018 Baby.” I’m not sure what changed my way of thinking. Maybe it was the holidays. Maybe it was therapy. Maybe [and most likely] it was the support of Ted, my Mom, my friends, who just got it. I had a plan and for some reason, the plan didn’t work out- which really confused and pissed me off. As a result, I was learning to be grateful in the moment, and as my Mom reminds me, “to be patient,” which is NOT easy for me. I’m impatient, emotional, passionate, and determined. ALRIGHT ALRIGHT!
So maybe my plan did happen, but it [he was a little delayed]. Yeah, I’m talking about you Michael Stanson.
Want to know my birthday plans? Let me break it down for you…. [note there’s limited documenting when it comes to diaper changes, meal making, nose wiping, etc.]:
8:40 am Lily and Anthony have an ear/tubes recheck at their ENT. After Anthony will go to school and Lily and I will return home to Ted and Michael. Ted will head into work and Lily, Michael and I will attack the day!
11:45 am Joey and Anthony come home from school.
1:30 pm Gym time for Mom!
3:30 pm Mom and the crew head to Detroit to visit Dad’s office.
4:30 pm HAPPY HOUR IN DETROIT- no location decided yet. My only requirement is kid-friendly snacks and craft cocktails for Mom. We may, MAY, make this a two-stop trip depending on kid-behavior.
Seriously. Nothing else going on for my birthday. And I couldn’t be happier or more excited!
THE FUTURE FOR THE SERBINSKI CREW
I’m craving stability, routine, and comfort for my family. Since Michael and my high blood pressure issues, I’m slowly learning to slow down. Enjoy family time. Enjoy the moment. And most importantly, CHILL OUT. Which is SO hard for me. Seriously. I might be smiley at school field trips and class parties, but I’m not a chill person. I should be involved in competitive sports or kickboxing daily. As a result, I’m currently making a list of things that might help me chill. Yoga. Walks. Meditation. But I’m struggling with changing who I am [GAH I dislike YOGA!] and balancing that crazy high blood pressure.
So, if you’ve been there, done that with preeclampsia, how did you handle it?
Thanks again for being a loyal reader and for all the birthday wishes from afar! Time to make 33 a great year!