It’s taken me about 4 months to figure out how to address this topic with you. And with my recent Mother’s Day in rehab [Maplegrove to be exact], I figured it was time to open my book and share a little bit about my struggle with addiction: specifically, alcohol and Xanax use. As you can imagine, Mother’s Day in rehab was NOT what I had in the cards for my life. For my children. For my family. But as my Mom always reminds me, “we plan and God laughs,” I’m pretty sure God has been hosting a comedy show on my behalf the past few years.
My PLAN is to open up more about my addiction [how, when, why, who, you name it] in a series of posts, but as for now I’m just sitting here a little self-conscious opening up this can of worms. But as many friends both in and out of rehab have shared, my story may help another and shed some light on the stigma alcoholism presents.
Since Michael’s birth, I’ve been struggling MUCH more than usual with my alcohol and Xanax use. Heck, I had my family and doctors fooled this was all post-partum depression and hormone related. Little did they know I was hiding bottles, drinking around the clock, using Xanax to sleep at night, and much, much more. Mother’s Day spent in rehab gave me some light as to what I want people to know, what I want my children to know, and most importantly what I want for myself: SOBRIETY. Self-love. Confidence. Commitment.
So, now I’m home, and I have plenty of topics around addiction to share with you. I’m thinking of it like I’m celebrating Mother’s Day all year long. Because God gave me this life to be a Mother my children deserve. And he gave me this life to be the Katie he knows I deserve. Despite what some weak moments or demons might tell me.
Did you swallow or digest all of that?! Now, this is what I’d love to hear from you:
A. Would you like to see more addiction/life/motherhood posts on the blog?
B. How would you feel about a brand change to be more “Mom’s Life” which covers food, family, and addiction?
C. Does this topic of addiction make you nervous or less inclined to read M2MN?
I’m sort of leaning towards option B.- as food and nutrition have always been my passion and career, but LIFE has taken a huge turn for me and my family that I think it’s almost inevitable that my brand changes to encompass all things that make Katie her: addiction, family, and food. I’m also open to suggestions as to what you think a brand name change might include. The wheels aren’t turning as fast as they used to folks!
A big shout-out to Henry Ford Maplegrove, the friends I met there, the friends who are continuously supporting me in and out of rehab [I went twice folks- stay tuned!], the program and people of Alcoholics Anonymous, and of course, my family. I know no one wished this to happen in my life, but I’m making lemon orzo and asparagus salad out of lemons and kicking the shit out of alcohol. One. Day. At. A. Time.